What a week!

Ok. This week has not been fun. All I knew was that I needed to get home at Thanksgiving, but I had no idea how I was going to. Ride after ride fell through and I knew no one could help me get as much stuff home as I needed anyways. I was so freaked out about all of it that I started freaking out about everything in my life. This week was just full of extreme emotions. Lots of crying. I'm sorry to everyone I've been a butt to. I don't know how people put up with me sometimes because I know that I'm the type of person I want to punch in the face. Yuck. It has been said that the things we hate most in others are the things we hate most in ourselves. For me it's true. One thing I really like about this blog is the title. Sometimes my stuff can be a little more personal than others, but I don't have to explain it. And I like that. Again though, I'm sorry. Especially to Christian. This week has been really rough with us, and it was my fault. All of it. And I don't know how he puts up with me, but he does no matter how crazy I am. I'm crazy about him. He really is so good for me in lots of different ways, but more than anything he makes me feel somewhat sane......most of the time. It kind of scares me how badly he could hurt me. He literally knows all my faults, issues, fears, worries, and problems. And he's the only one. And he has hurt me, and I'm sure it will happen again (despite my attempts to ignore it, I am quite sensitive). But I know (and this scares me most of all), there is nothing he could do that would make me want to leave. I'm pretty sure I would always come crawling back on all fours begging for another chance. That's a lot of power for a 19 year old to have, but I trust him. I have to. I would now like to take the time to make a disclaimer, this is not an unhealthy relationship. I know that could have scared some people, but don't let it. Just threaten him a lot and we'll have nothing to worry about :)