Scared

I get to see my Grandpa this weekend and I am scared. I know how bad he's doing and that he doesn't have much longer left on this Earth. Everyone loves Grandpa, he's just amazing and it's impossible not to. But I absolutely adore my Grandpa. He is kind, thoughtful, full of the Spirit, inspirational, and always has been my example for what I wanted a husband to be like. He was always my example of what it means to be a great husband, grandfather, servant of God, you name it. So it's scary to think I'm going to see him as not that man. He slowly has been leaving us and it's been really hard for me. But it's better for him to not suffer. He is the same man. His body just can't keep up with him anymore. And I am glad that soon he will be home and comfortable. But I am going to miss him.