Because I Matter

I really don't know. Lately I have been feeling.......yucky (I hate that word but it works). I know that life is peachy and  dandy and I really don't have very much to complain about, but the past few weeks have been rough. My bank account has slowly dwindled to nothing, I've been poked and prodded, I've felt very judged for recent decisions, our apartment flooded, work has been crazy, sleep has been non-existent, and I haven't gotten to the temple (though I know I DESPERATELY need to).

And then someone made a comment to me that I feel like put everybody else's thoughts about my situation into words. It hurt. But it made me really think. What am I doing? What are my plans? How am I going to make all this happen? To other people this might seem like the most simple problem in the world but I really struggle with this. I know what I want to happen and I have it all planned out in my head with a perfect ending, but how am I really going to make this happen?

All I know, is that as long as I'm working towards being the person my Father wants me to be I'll be ok. I know that everything will be fine. It might not necessarily be the way I was hoping, but I'll be ok. And I hope you know how hard that is for me to write. The thought of this not all working the way I have planned is so scary and painful for me, but I'll be ok. I have to be ok. I'm British!

Keep calm, and carry on..................