"Wait, you're home?"

I'm still waking up hours before everyone else. Going from East Coast, to Pacific Coast, to Mountain Time, back to Pacific Coast probably isn't helping. But it's interesting to be the first one awake in this house. My Dad used to always be awake and moving at like 3 or 4 in the morning (he must be getting old)!

The first thing I still do in the morning is exercise and then study my scriptures before anything else. I can't miss these things. I love these moments in my day, even if it's just for a few moments. Without them I will crumble.

I love reading books! Harry Potter will be the first on my list.

I've seen Interstellar and Inside Out. Both amazing movies. I'm glad they were my firsts.

It took me almost a week from actually getting home to get to the beach. It was worth the wait.

The meds should be "taking effect" at this point. Are they working? I have no idea.

Break downs are still happening. To be expected. Still in places I would have least expected. It's so strange for me to be surrounded by people I've literally known my whole life, and be panicking about having to talk to them.

There was one night that I stayed up an hour past everyone else and I ate 4 bowls of cereal. Sometimes it sneaks up on you, but other times you really feel it coming on early. The next morning I really didn't think I would get out of bed that day. I was not going to move. Then I thought, "I can go to the temple.......I can go to the temple. I can go to the temple!" I got out of bed and got there, and the rest of the day was great! I even got to talk to my best friend in West Virginia!

I think my new motto is, "If it feels right, DO IT! Heavenly Father will stop you if it's not." So if it feels right I'm gonna do it. The same thing happened with the decision to come home. It absolutely felt right. It still does. I have no doubts about that decision.

I feel like I'm exploring myself and finding a whole new person. She's different. But not glaringly. I think I like her. In some ways I feel more confident. Which is very strange because I mostly have felt shattered in the self-confidence category. I'm still learning about her. She surprises me every day.

A lady that works for my Uncle is getting baptized on Monday. We got to have an awesome lesson with her and the Missionaries. My Uncle is stinking excited.

I still don't have a phone, and probably won't for another week.

Church tomorrow........it will be great!

People keep asking me about school. I still have no plans to go back. Maybe one day. For those who are rolling their eyes, foaming at the mouth, and gnashing their teeth I say, "When you pay for it I'll be happy to go." It really is just a money issue. I would love to go back. I love learning new things and I would love to learn more, I'm just butt broke. So send me a check and I'll be sure to use it!